exhale slowly; squeeze the trigger .

alone i stand, outlooking the good things in life .

physically and mentally .

gorgeous night skies; beautiful sunsets; dank marijuana; dope music .

and as for mentally: her . :/

the only thing i want in life, doesn't want me anymore .

and i'm still so in love with her .

smh .

...deuces.

haa .

i've come to realize,
85% of the time ...
my left eye is squinted .
ehh, fuck it . haha .

BC1179 .

:/ i despise this day without you .

the truth ;

just ... listen .
this song is the truth dude .

stuff .

babe, you know it gets no better than this .


she makes me laugh .

you'll appreciate this, <3 .

ehem, i'm quite fond of this .

last night's activity, pretty cool .

oh yeah, i've seen it twice now .
most ridiculous movie i've seen .
i suggest, to go peep it . nuuutss .

i want for xmas <3 . along with _______ .


haaa, the crack fox .
"that's the nighttime film for me in the nighttimes, for the fuzzy tingle times .
:'( .


_hmm . too much dude .
i just want you back <3 .
love is happiness, no doubt . :|

bye_ .

want you, need you .

I WANT MY 'MELA BACK !!!
asdlfjasdfus9usflj .
just, come back to me please .

ugh .

going buzurk .
honestly, everything is irrelevant .
i am truely in love, but i am too late ?
i believe in destiny, and we're destined .
no justifications of my actions, and i hold no more excuses .
you're all i need . i owe you my life, mel .
you're my world . i'm sorry . :|

oh yeah, halloween photos .

^ name: jose .












we were old men, as you can see .

nothing like this .

^^ this is how i feel about you & i .

there's a lot i need to personally, express to you verbally .
every attempt i make, it's just a lot of fucking murmuring .
there's a lot built up inside me, so bby come and try me .
i know how to love you, please don't be so blinded ...
by how i've treated you in the past times .
little did i know those were the bad times .
i wish i could take it all back like a bad rhyme .
but i can't, that's why i'm looking at the future .
how can i win you back ?, i'm such a fuckin' loser .
i never realized how much i really need you .
this would happen after i fuckin' lose you .
we can't fall out of love, nahh fuck that .
our love is a million lightyears, ain't no comin' back .
i swear this shit'll gimme a fuckin' heart attack .
you're the light of my life, i see you shinin' through .
i'm never budging, my heart is always with you .
this shit is so sad, got me feelin' hella blue .
i swear all i want to do is love you .
i really can't believe i watched our love fall .
now i'd do anything, bby . i swear i'd crawl .
i could hate myself for what i haven't done .
when knowing i had come across the you, the one .
you, you're the only one for me .
now it's only me, and i hate being lonely .
if i'd only acted instead spitting bullshit .
we'd be going on our ten months, fucking dipshit .
i swear i'm truely fucking retarded .
i really don't know what goes on in this head above .
but right now ... it sucks really being in love . :/

blah . i don't know what to do .

mindblown .

at everything right now .
never had this much of an abundance in my thought process .
the thing about it is, it's all of one subject, her .
love is everything, and that's all i have to say .
it's about to make me do something crazy .

lls, marijuana is the only thing that makes me happy right now .

new .