nothing like this .

^^ this is how i feel about you & i .

there's a lot i need to personally, express to you verbally .
every attempt i make, it's just a lot of fucking murmuring .
there's a lot built up inside me, so bby come and try me .
i know how to love you, please don't be so blinded ...
by how i've treated you in the past times .
little did i know those were the bad times .
i wish i could take it all back like a bad rhyme .
but i can't, that's why i'm looking at the future .
how can i win you back ?, i'm such a fuckin' loser .
i never realized how much i really need you .
this would happen after i fuckin' lose you .
we can't fall out of love, nahh fuck that .
our love is a million lightyears, ain't no comin' back .
i swear this shit'll gimme a fuckin' heart attack .
you're the light of my life, i see you shinin' through .
i'm never budging, my heart is always with you .
this shit is so sad, got me feelin' hella blue .
i swear all i want to do is love you .
i really can't believe i watched our love fall .
now i'd do anything, bby . i swear i'd crawl .
i could hate myself for what i haven't done .
when knowing i had come across the you, the one .
you, you're the only one for me .
now it's only me, and i hate being lonely .
if i'd only acted instead spitting bullshit .
we'd be going on our ten months, fucking dipshit .
i swear i'm truely fucking retarded .
i really don't know what goes on in this head above .
but right now ... it sucks really being in love . :/

blah . i don't know what to do .